
I can laugh about this now. I’m not at all sure that she can.


She’s gonna hurt me when she hears this.
*Update, she finally noticed it.
“Really? You posted pics last night?”
moments pass…
“Yeah I didn’t see these at all. =( I wonder what else I miss?”
seconds pass
“THE RECORDING YOU BASTARDCJUISKDU YSOAIKJSUW7ASKJDH”

So I went on my weekend rampage, while Ripley had her holiday sex weekend. It was fun, sad, a little lonely, and sexy all at once. It was odd not talking to her, not even a text, all weekend. Tuesday afternoon she took him to the airport, and as soon as she was home sent me a picture of her, naked, on her stomach, ass in the air, pussy peeking out.
“Yes please, more!” It was incredible how good I felt, instantly, instant flip from morose to cheerful. I’m not sure I’m ready to think too hard about why getting that first picture buoyed my mood so much. But suddenly I felt ten feet tall. Seconds later a picture of her sucking cock showed up, and I was ten feet tall and masturbating, frantically.
“God damn you look so fucking hot sucking cock…it made my heart race and got me instantly hard when that first pic showed up. Please tell me you took lots???”
“I have more, but I think I like giving them to you one at a time. There might be some video too…”
“Don’t blog my pics! I mean, I trust you, I’m just sayin’”
“Should I avoid writing about it?”
“Go ahead. You wrote about everything else! A nice soap opera, just like you like. :)”
And then she sent me the video. He’s eating her out when the camera starts rolling. Around the 38 second mark he slides that huge cock in her, and you can tell that on the audio just as clearly as if you saw it. When she tells him “harder” there at the end I came, I couldn’t help it.
“Hey, I could tell you stories. Stories you would like. For instance, I got off today to your porn on your iPod. :)”
“Really? Wow. I’m….what’s a word that means both surprised and tingly in my naughty bits? How far did you watch? What turned you on about it? That’s KrazyKelly, btw, she of the insane family crisis and the financial aid fiasco.
“I watched all of it. Not all today, but I’ve had it for a month…It’s just good porn man!”
“Well I always thought so. But now I suddenly realize I don’t know what turns you on in porn… It got a tiny bit rough?”
“Nah. You just slapped her like once.”
“Yeah, but “slapped”! Which was sorta her thing…but not so much yours!”
“I’ve been slapped! Not that big of a thing! And it’s even better ‘cause it’s her. If it was someone that I was ever even a teeny bit envious of, it just wouldn’t be as good. But I never cared about her.”
“Yeah, but did you like it! Or do you enjoy watching it?”
“Well yes, you big goof! I watched it to get off! Mostly I like the actual sex part, which probably doesn’t surprise you. You did spend a long time spanking her. It does matter who it is though. I don’t want to see the LGS or the Alcoholic Toddler tho’.”
“Well LGS I understand, there was that unfortunate overlap, and I managed to piss you both off. But why not the Alcoholic Toddler? Just ‘cause I said I feel warmly towards her?”
“Yeah, kinda. It’s dumb I know, because I wouldn’t mind BMCMFM girl. Don’t even try to understand.
She tries so hard doesn’t she…

Listening to this again was strange. God knows there’s a healthy dose of sadism lurking in my libido, but I’m also terrified. Something about a girl saying no still makes me want to stop, even as it makes me hard. Almost every girl I’ve ever seriously played bdsm games with has had some moment like this with me:
Submissive Slut: please can i ask you something first though?
Me: of course
Submissive SLut: next time…can you be rougher? i can’t remember you ever slapping me i think you held back
Which is embarrassing…especially since it usually means I just didn’t listen well enough, or didn’t take it to heart. That girl wanted to be slapped. The BMCMFM girl wanted choked while acting out rape fantasies. The SSGS wanted marks on her ass that would last a while. The LGS wants her limits pushed, and she mocks me mercilessly when I ease up on her. She prefers humiliation as a motivating tool, not because it’s more effective, I think she just likes to play…
But the little pink cord is one of the few things I’ve found I can scare her with.
This audio scares me a little too. I can only even listen to it ‘cause at some point you can hear her asking me to hit her…
The little slut thought she was tough because she could handle the belt, but she was really bad this time…
Here’s the start of what happened after she began her confession…spoiler alert, I tried to make sure that no matter who she was fucking she would be thinking of me, at least a little bit, as I left her pussy sore…but she’ll update later, no doubt….
bmcmfm boy

Punished, Confessed, Fucked. Some of the best fucking wasn’t recorded, but I got what was coming to me. There are marks on my ass still, and there will be for several days.

A little intense, you’ll just have to trust that I was really enjoying myself
Beat Me
Choke Me
Fuck Me
I want to be your fuck-doll. I want to dress in thigh-highs and garter belts, rouge my lips, let you chain me up, and rip me apart.
I'll lay still, lashed to the bed while you use my body.
I'll incite your rage and feel the consequences of my actions, taken out on me in blows and asphyxiation.
The bruises you leave behind will be your trophies, and my treasures.
So the consensus opinion is that this blog is confusing. There are a couple reasons for this. First, our lives are a little confusing. Second, we’re both massively paranoid, but also a blabbermouths and exhibitionists. It gets a little bipolar. Right now the blog is a little kinked (past participle, past tense of kink).
The original biography tagline for this tumblr, still above, came from an email the original BMCMFM Girl sent to me, and it still works pretty well as an introduction to this blog. She was prompted to write it by
Since then I’ve had lots of fun and, when appropriate, documented it here, but now this has gone back to being a two-person blog, with the
LGS playing the role of “person who gets beaten, choked, and fucked.” Originally this space was all about marked up bodies, sexual objectification and rape fantasies. Today it’s still all that, but also a sex-positive, black feminist, righteous twerking porn blog, for people who like rough sex. If you’re curious about the other random stuff bmcmfm guy has gotten up to, and you’re too lazy to just trawl through the archives you can take a look here.You can also reach bmcmfm guy at bmcmfm@gmail.com if you want a more private conversation. You can find the LGS over at her
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